Attention: RANTING ahead

Alfred was supposed to take me to the market today. I wanted to look for materials for a project I want to work on, including materials to make my own glass bead magnets. It didn’t happen.Angry 6

One of my former agents who happens to be his drinking buddy rendered his last day at work last night and so they and a bunch of other guys went out for booze after shift. I understand that and all, but he was the one who promised we’d go today. And it isn’t as if he’d have time tomorrow either. He has a family thing to go to since his brother’s leaving to work abroad in a few days. I wouldn’t bet on Monday either.

Rant 3Sometimes even when I feel like ranting about things like this (him not following through on something) I want to kick myself in the butt. After all, I don’t have to let him ruin my plans. I should be capable of going my own way if I really have to. I mean, he doesn’t always have to be around to escort me. There are also several other people I can ask to go with on outings like what I had intended earlier.

But, he’s the only one I feel comfortable with for what I had planned out for today. I’m out on a specific mission and I would need his input.

Still. It’s not as if I couldn’t do it on my own.

I hate that I’m not really as independent as I believe myself to me. It’s like I’m all talk, but when it comes right down to it, I can’t do it. I can’t do anything.

That’s it. Whether anyone’s going with me or not, I will go out tomorrow.

Okay, I won’t exactly be going to Divisoria or Binondo on my own, but I will go somewhere else that I can navigate on my own.