I think. Therefore, I am. Stressed.

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Uh-huh.

I think I am stressed out.

At work yesterday, I was panicking. I felt like I needed to have so many things done when in reality, there wasn’t really that much to do. What’s more, no one was pressuring me. It’s not like I had a witch behind my back pushing me to work work work.

Stressed out symptom number one: irrational panicking (okay, I invented the term).

My left eye is twitching. This happened before, maybe two years or so ago. Wait, I don’t know if it’s appropriate to say it’s twitching. More like tremors on the upper eye folds. You know what I mean? So anyway when it happened before, I went to see an eye doctor (thank you Medicard). He looked at everything and asked me all sorts of questions. I have a long history of eye issues. Visiting our eye doctor every few months was not at all a new thing for me. But that time, it wasn’t really my eyes that had a problem. It was nerves.

Nah, I don’t mean I was nervous. But the tremors were some kind of involuntary nerve contractions or whatever they’re called. And why are they doing that? Doc said I may be suffering from a lot of stress. He prescribed something to calm it down but ultimately advised me to rest, and avoid stressful situations.

Honestly, I don’t know what I did to make it stop. But they did go away eventually. Now it’s back.

Stressed out symptom number two: eye fold tremors (I am so good at naming symptoms, aren’t I?).


I stayed until end of business day at work yesterday – 1PM, when my shift technically ended at 11AM. Okay, so that’s only two hours of unpaid overtime so that doesn’t really say much. But the thing is, that’s my last day at work. I should be sooooo looking forward to getting home and starting my weekend. In fact, I had all good intentions to round up some girlfriends and see The Time Traveller’s Wife (the boyfriend is not interested in seeing it :() on Friday evening. But guess what? I arrived home, gave ma the meds she asked for, took her blood pressure, ate lunch that my brother cooked (tinola, perfect for the weather), checked my personal mail, tried to FB and blog… and then I was so overcome by sleepiness. I decided to take a nap, and the next thing I knew was that it was already 10PM. I slept the entire afternoon and most of the evening away!

So much for my plans for a movie date with any one of my girlfriends 🙁 And I also missed all the teleseryes on TV 🙁

And it isn’t even as if I felt relaxed and rested when I woke up. I felt awful, actually. I woke my brother up (he was supposed to have left for work already but he overslept), heated the food, and we had dinner together. Ma was still curled up on the couch, she’s been seek for three days already.  Hay.

Sat back in front of my computer and thought it would be a long night of Restaurant City, and finally getting down to reading up for my Oh Shoot! class.

I was to have none of that though. I was still feeling not so well. I decided to take a cold shower (it’s been raining so it is colder than normal) thinking that is bound to make me feel better. I took my sweet time. At 1AM I was back on my PC and trying to have a conversation with Tracy. But I was to have none of that either.

A few minutes later – I was soooo sleepy again. I decided to rest for a bit, next thing I knew – it was 7AM.

Stressed out symptom number three: sleepiness

There are a few more symptoms but I don’t have time to list them down anymore. I am just surprised because I’ve been doing pretty well lately, and even just enjoying time at work (suprising no?). And then this just hits me. Hmm.

How about you? How are you doing?