Sleep Well

Sleep Well. Lately, I haven’t been sleeping well.

I get sooooo sleepy when I’m at work, but when I’m home, I’m awake. When I finally sleep, it’s not a good one. I dream. And sometimes, I even have nightmares. One night, as soon as my head hit the pillow, I felt detached from myself yet feeling everything. The couch was vibrating, and I was being electrocuted! It took a long time before I could scream, but it seemed that I did. In my dream I called out to my mom, willing her to wake up. She did, and she tried to pry me away from the couch but I was stuck! I stood up but I still had something on my back that was causing the electrocution. We couldn’t get it off.

I woke up. I felt bad, it felt heavy. I moved around and tried to sleep again. As soon as I closed my eyes, I felt it happening all over again. I don’t remember how or when it stopped. But only after that scary episode was I able to sleep well. And so I woke up late for work. 🙁

I get those nightmares too where you feel like you’re dying, finding it difficult to breathe. Nothing else is happening, but you can see yourself sleeping and breathing slowly and you cannot move. Nor scream. In those episodes, I talk to myself and say that I will survive. And I pray. I do not wish this on anyone.

Sometimes I consider trying sleeping pills, maybe they’d give me better sleep. But I’ve never tried them.

Tonight, when we all go to bed, I wish for sweet dreams and restful slumber.