Wrapped up in my own world: ignoring the China milk scare & others too

There was a time when I was appalled by other young people’s apathy. I vividly remember hearing, back when I was a junior in college, hearing this senior girl so worried about because she was not going to get the – was that a condo or a car? – that her dad had promised her. When I heard that, I felt disgusted- how could she worry about such trivial things when there were so many other important things to worry about? When there were so many issues plaguing the country at the time?

In time, I realized I was wrong to trivialize what she felt were her issues. I was wrong to judge.

But at that time in my life, as was years earlier and years since, I was a social activist – particularly on children’s issues. Having been raised by parents who were in the thick of action in the upheaval that was the Martial Law years, I was brought up aware of what’s happening to my surroundings. It also helped that I went to highschool where there was some of that too.

So what I’ve become now, is a little unimaginable for myself.

I used to think it was impossible, but I have become wrapped up in my own little world. I care less now. And I’m not sure that is all very good.

I do not wish to judge others, believe me, because we all write about what we want to, what we feel, what affects us. But I am judging myself, in a way. Because, as I said, I have become another a slightly different version of the person I thought I would grow up to be.

I’d like to think that this has nothing to do with the career change that I did more than three years ago. That switching careers wasn’t a complete change in lifestyle. I cringe to think of myself as a total sellout. Though I don’t doubt that there are others who may think that way.

But look at my blog, notice how I almost never post about other people, about social issues, anymore? I never really thought about it until now. I blog about most things, I only keep my deepest secrets to myself really. The rest I share.

I realized this because, well, the China milk scare has been in the headlines for some time now. And then there’s the tragedy in the mines of Benguet. Yet none of those two newsmakers have found their way through here. The worst part is that I was only vaguely aware of the Benguet mine disaster – I thought it was in some other country.

I had not picked up the papers, and I have not been paying attention to the news on TV apparently. Shame on me.

Enough with the ranting.

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Meeting Sharpei. And no progress on the weight.

My nephew has a new puppy, also a Shih Tzu like my Zune, but this time a girl. She’s here, with my nephew and his older sister too. Finally, Zune is going to have a girlfriend! They named her Sharpei, from Disney’s Highschool Musical. She is so cute and cuddly, but quite feisty. She isn’t enjoying the attention that Zune is showering her with. Haha. One minute we think they’re playing, the next, well they sound more like they’re fighting! 

They’ve got plenty of time to get along though. Sorry no pictures of her to show yet, maybe in another few weeks.

I am done reading the entire Twilight Saga, much to Alfred’s surprise. But I think I’ll keep my thoughts to myself for now, I don’t really want to spoil it for him. He reads my blog you see, and he’ll surely ask me about why I say what I say and so it will just spoil the reading part for him. 😉

Unfortunately, I don’t have any update for our weight loss program – because there’s still no program to speak of. I stayed home all weekend which means I didn’t go to the grocery to buy ingredients for salads that I could take to work with me everyday.

I’ve been thinking about taking those replacement diet stuff, you know, the ones where you’re supposed to just drink their special shakes in replacement for one of your meals? I don’t actually know anyone who has actually tried it and had significant weight loss though. I’ve been reading up on different product lines and testimonials about stuff like orovo. The only thing that keeps me from trying them out is the added cost. 

Hmm… maybe I’ll walk to the office early morning tomorrow to pick up Alfred. That will be good exercise for me 🙂

Scrapbook Saturday # 9 – Organization Part 3

No layout again this week owing to the fact that my computer has crashed and has possibly even been burned too. Rather than spending time setting up my digi-stash on either Alfred’s or my mom’s laptop, and installing my software on either of the two devices, I decided I’d endure a weekend of no new downloads or actual scrapping. I just don’t want to spend all that time setting up and then when I’ve got me a better PC I’d be setting up on that again and taking things off of theirs.

Besides, not having the option to scrap on either of the two laptops will likely force me into action sooner than if I find that I can work on other people’s laptops comfortably. And truly, the sooner that I get new PC parts, the better.

But you all are not here to listen to me rant about my sleeping baby of a computer, are you? Nah, I didn’t think so.

Scrapbook Saturday 

This edition (thank you lord!) of Scrapbook Saturday is the final installment on my Organization series. If you haven’t read them yet, parts one and two are just clicks away. 😉

So what is the organization method that I’ve found to work for me now?

It has to start from the time you download the files. Taking care of your stash then is so much easier, but I am first to admit that I don’t organize them that soon myself. Anyway, when you download your digiscrapping files, you must dedicate a folder for that – it just makes it all easier for them to be in one place.

I named a folder Scrapbooking – this was where my new downloads would go. In that folder, I create a new folder every week – using the start of the week as the date. So I have July 13, June 22, etcetera.

Remember my Digital Scrap Supply Store mega folder? When I’m ready to unzip files, I go to that folder and create a new folder with the same name as the folders I am getting the zipped files from (so I would also have July 13, June 22 and so on).  These “dated” folders are only created as a guide for when I make backups of my files. It’s like a marker to remind me that a certain folder’s contents haven’t been backed up yet.

In the beginning, I organized the files with a folder for each designer – so in my Store you’ll see folders with designer names alongside folders with dates – but it was a nightmare to remember which files have backups already. Specially if you had something new to add to each designer’s folder every week or every couple of days. Now backing up is an entirely different story and I know there’s a more hassle free option for that. But until I decide to spend money on Carbonite, I would have to rely on manually backing up my stuff. I only back up the week’s folder when all the downloads have been unzipped.

Next comes the fun part. As soon as I unzip a download, I open the folder and add it to Windows Live Photo Gallery (my current free software of choice). I’ve used Picasa too and it is also a good one for this next purpose. Once the contents of the freshly unzipped folder show up in Gallery, I start tagging. I batch tag the designer name and kit name onto all the files that came from the same folder. Then I tag the individual files. Remember some of the folder names I came up with from my post number 2? Well most of those I use as tags now.

Samples of tags I’ve used: background, solid, grunge, alpha, acrylic, pink, blue, violet, yellow, christmas, hearts, kids, floral, flower, frame, glitter, doodle

I’ve used so many I’ve lost count. I don’t necessarily have to remember what I used to tag all those stuff because in Windows Live Photo Gallery (unlike in Picasa), your tags are conveniently listed on the menu to the left hand side. So if I needed to pull up only stash from a particular designer, all I need is to key in the name, or click on the tag and the thumbnails will be filtered accordingly. If I want to use predominantly blue for a layout, I key in that color tag.

Having the files zipped in their own folders as the zipped downloads makes it convenient for crediting too. If I use a file, I just right click the thumbnail and choose to open containing folder. I open the TOU file that is likely to be in that folder and take note of designer name/website.

This system is workig for me but it may not work for everyone. I know I’ll tire of this system someday or I may find a better one. You can rest assured I’ll be sharing that with you too.

So how do you organize your digital scrapbooking files?

Bella and Edward: Twilight

I guess it is no surprise that my topic this week for the Online Book and Movie Online Fan Club is about the first half of the Twilight Saga. I have mentioned too many times on this blog (as well as over at my other blog) that I have picked them up, and was surprised that I did actually find them entertaining.

You see, I was prepared not to like Twilight.

I first had my hands on an actual copy of the book from some of the girls at work. I didn’t read it at the time – it didn’t look like any book I would usually pick up from the store. I had then read from different people’s blogs their various Twilight experiences. More of them liked it, but there are those too who found it lame. This was the most interesting review critique of Twilight that I’ve read; it’s what convinced me to go on and read.

I read Twilight twice. And I decided that I liked it enough to move on to the next. I must admit though, I didn’t particularly like learning the story from Bella’s point of view. The first chapters were dragging – I felt that the author was trying too hard to setup the climax. It got more interesting though from the middle, until the end. That made sense to me after visiting Stephenie Meyer’s website.

I don’t like Bella. I felt like she was self-centered the way she treated Charlie and her new friends (were they really her friends?). Then I realized she wasn’t self-centered, no not selfish. She was just so unwilling to like anybody, so unwilling to care. So bent on having a miserable time – on punishing herself. How many times did she mention tuning out while her new friends were around her? It annoyed me. If she didn’t want their company, she should have just said so.

Could there be really anyone as clumsy and accident magnet as she is? I am used to being called lampa. I’ve never been into sports as a kid. I’d trip and fall a lot, and that’s why I have scars all over. I hardly ever really enjoyed PE in school – I welcomed any way I could get an exemption (which wasn’t easy to get). But I was not/am not an accident magnet.

Back to Bella. I felt the author’s conscious effort to paint a picture of Bella that would be such a mismatch to the perfection that Edward was. But I could also see the hints of personality and traits that would make her his perfect fit. Strip Edward of his immortality and Adonis features, and I guess they would be a match. They complement each other.

Anyway, from the first book, Twilight, these are my favorite quotes, both uttered by Edward:

For almost ninety years I’ve walked among my
kind, and yours… all the time thinking I was complete in myself, not
realizing what I was seeking. And not finding anything, because you
weren’t alive yet.

and

just because we’ve been… dealt a certain hand… it doesn’t mean that
we can’t choose to rise above — to conquer the boundaries of a destiny
that none of us wanted.

The first one is so cheesy, but the second is inspiring, I guess. Makes me remember the line: Rage against the dying of the light. Did I get that right? Haha.

It wasn’t really the love story of Bella and Edward that I particularly liked in this book. It’s how the Cullens have bonded together. It’s how they’ve all of a sudden worked to protect Bella – not necessarily for her sake, but out of love for Edward. If I had one person who would do that for me – protect who/what I loved because they couldn’t endure seeing me without that love – I’d consider myself very lucky. I think I only really appreciated how deep their bonds are after reading this:

Alice interrupted this time, touching my cheek with her cold fingers.
“It’s been almost a century that Edward’s been alone. Now he’s found you.
You can’t see the changes that we see, we who have been with him for so
long. Do you think any of us want to look into his eyes for the next
hundred years if he loses you?”

Anyway, I could go on really. But it’s time I stopped myself.

So Alfred is reading Twilight now. He likes it – not because of the lovey dovey stuff, but because he likes vampire stories. I know he will enjoy New Moon and Eclipse even better. I’ve been trying to convince him to drop the book because he’ll go so much faster if I just told him the story. We can even go chapter by chapter if he wanted. Hehe. Looks like he’ll be reading this through from cover to cover though. Go for it my love 🙂 

Online Book and Movie Club at Muthahood Crib Now, go visit other players at the online BAM fan club HQ, or start by reading what movie Detter recommends. 

Until the next Twilight post. Oh, and I might read the last book tomorrow.

Alfred – 180lbs by January 25

I’ve all but given up on my PC – it refuses to boot up, not recognizing the IDE Hard Drive properly. I don’t want to think about it for now. I’ll concentrate on convincing my brother to lend me the money to completely overhaul the darn thing.

I was looking forward to get home last night because I wanted to share an IM conversation that Alfred and I had. Here it is, in a mix of English and Filipino:

Alfred (NCO) says:

kala ko ba mag 5 step na tayo sa pagpapayat
verabear [@87934] says:

nga pala no
so ano ung step
1
Alfred (NCO) says:

setting goals
verabear [@87934] says:

so what are your goals?
ako to lose ten pounds in one month
Alfred (NCO) says:

pumayat health reasons
verabear [@87934] says:

motivation yan
concrete goals dapat
Alfred (NCO) says:

ok
verabear [@87934] says:

to wear my skinny jeans by october 25
Alfred (NCO) says:

lose 30 lbs in 2 months
verabear [@87934] says:

ano pang goals?
skinny pants pala ung sakin, hindi jeans
Alfred (NCO) says:

dapat mag 180lbs
verabear [@87934] says:

be 180lbs by nvember 25 ?
Alfred (NCO) says:

di naman
baka pede next year
verabear [@87934] says:

january?
concrete
anong month?
Alfred (NCO) says:

mga late jan or feb
verabear [@87934] says:

january 25
Alfred (NCO) says:

oo
verabear [@87934] says:

ano ung step 2
step ba o rule?
Alfred (NCO) says:

start now
step
verabear [@87934] says:

number one – start now
step one – start now
step two – set goals
step 3 – find motivation?
Alfred (NCO) says:

indi
verabear [@87934] says:

ahihi
Alfred (NCO) says:

1= set goals
2 = start now
verabear [@87934] says:

lista mo na lahat
Alfred (NCO) says:

3 = no shortcut
4 = motivate
5 = be happy

So where was this coming from? Alfred bought DVDs the other day and watched one movie after another while he was home. Among those movies is Toni Gonzaga and Sam Milby’s My Big Love (local). I haven’t seen it but parts of that movie were shot in one of the houses near us. While they were shooting the film, they had to use next door and then also our garage area to setup dressing rooms for the stars. I didn’t see the stars when they were here though. Ugh.

But back to our conversation… The film is about the girl helping the obese guy lose weight. Since Alfred is on his “I’ve got to lose weight” phase, he couldn’t have chosen a better time to see that film.

What does this mean for us though? Are we going on a diet? Are we finally going to sign up for the gym? I’m not yet sure really. It’s quite hard to pin down Alfred and have him come up with a concrete plan.

At least we’ve agreed on Step 1 – we’ve set goals:

Me – lose 10 pounds by October 25 (this is so nothing compared to how much I really need to lose but it’s a stretch to actually lose 10 pounds in 30 days. Haha)

Him – Weigh 180lbs by January 25. That’s three months away. I’ll post our starting weights at a later time. 🙂

Me – Be able to wear the sleek skinny pants I bought two months ago. It fit me then, it doesn’t fit me now. Arghh!

And, though he has no real concrete plan yet, we’ve officially started (remember Step 2 in the conversation?).

I’ll be grocery shopping this weekend for salad to take with me to work. I’ll figure out a way to make it less work for me to have to prepare healthier food, and still less expensive than just ordering salad from Starbucks, Country Style, Wendy’s, Sexy Chef and/or Cibo (all available at our office building).

I’ll have to fit in some exercise too – what activity I’m not sure yet. Walking has got to be there. Then there’s also taking treatments at MF, something my mom has been bugging me about.

I can only hope I achieve my goals this time around. If I stick to whatever plan I’ll be making, even if I don’t lose much weight, at least I’d have given myself the best acne treatment, eh? Not that I actually needed one. I just suddenly remembered this kid who I think needs some help on her pimples. I wonder if it’s because of what she eats? Aw, stop it.

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